I’ve posted on my Facebook page numerous times about the fact that when I see heavier people at our local park doing laps on the outdoor trails, I silently cheer for them in my head.
I used to be them – it takes a lot to get outside to workout when you’re heavy, feeling like everyone is looking at you and judging you. I remember a few summers ago after I gained my hormone weight (I have PCOS and without birth control pills regulating my system, I can gain weight very quickly and have a tough time taking it off) wearing sweatshirts when I could, even in the dead of summer, and always wanting to wait until it was dark to go for walks in our neighborhood because I was so self-conscious. I remember my husband getting discouraged because I never wanted to go out and do anything because none of my clothes fit – I refused to accept that I had gained weight and wouldn’t buy anything new, I just wanted to lose it and fit into my regular clothes again.
Luckily I have a basement workout room I could retreat to in order to start working on the loss (and changing up my food habits in a big way to better cater to my PCOS when I’m not on medication), but going out in public embarrassed me. I had people who had made comments to me when I was at my heaviest (who I now understand are a-holes and should be ignored) and it absolutely killed me inside – I didn’t want that ridicule again.
So anyway, when I saw this Facebook post circulating today, it really hit me in a very personal way:
I may have felt self-conscious, but there may have been another “former fatty” out there cheering me on when he/she saw me walking. Now that I’m in that mindset, I would have encouraged my former fat self to just forget about it and go, which is why I try to use my Facebook page to encourage and motivate people of all sizes and at all stages of their weight loss journey. Losing weight for me has been so much more than pounds lost on the scale…it’s been about finding myself, who I truly am, and gaining a sense of self-pride I was never aware of before. I feel that I went through my journey so that I could learn and I can now help others start theirs.
You never know who is watching…and cheering you on. If you need help starting your journey, please do not hesitate to contact me – I offer free coaching and I’m ready for you. 🙂